As most of you know, I started back at work very part time about a month and a half ago. Just as a back-story, it’s for a non-profit. I have worked in some way at this non-profit for the past 15 years. (Yikes!) So needless to say, I am extremely qualified for my dinky super part time position in which I get to bring Vivien with me.
I have a passion for this non-profit. I grew up working there, and it changed my life. It’s been there for me in so many life stages. It’s given me my very best friends, and a sense of community, no matter where I lived. I love it, and always intended on returning full time again once my babies were in school.
Well, the coordinator that is my direct supervisor just put in her notice, as her family is moving. Guess who they turned towards, to fill her position? That’s right, friends. Me.
The job that they are offering me would be full time, however, it will be different than what I am accustomed to. I won’t be working in Aquatics full time, as there is already an Aquatics Director. The Executive Director assured me that most of the work load would be handled from home, and most of the hours that I would have to do at the location, I could continue to bring Vivien. She urged me to check into putting Vivien into daycare for one day a week, so that I can still do office hours, and attend meetings on that day.
In all reality, the job sounds perfect. Also, the money would more than help us, at this point. We could pay off credit cards, and be virtually debt free (which is something that we are on the track to doing right now, but it’s very slow going.)
We could afford to put some extra money into our car payment each month, and not be worried about money as much as we are right now.
But then the thought of returning to work full time makes me sad. I want to be around Vivien all the time. It ate me alive dropping her off at daycare before- would I still feel that way now? Would this benefit her, since I’m sure that at her particular age, she would probably enjoy going to a daycare program once a week? Am I being too sheltering by keeping her home with me 24/7?
Quite honestly, it sounds ideal to be working from home 80%-90% of the time (or taking her with me) but there are also some huge changes that would occur with me returning to work full time. Writing, and blogging would have to be more scheduled. Waking up at 9:30am would disappear.
As you can see, I am very torn about this decision, and would appreciate any advice, guidance, encouragement, or prayers that you may be willing to throw my way.